Mums

My mum come to visit us last weekend. She hadnt been to see us since our wedding 14 months prior, so it was a big deal she was finally here again. The stay was not long enough, but I was thankful just to see her. She did all the things mums do- help cook dinner, play with Memphis, and she even helped out around the house.I joked to her that did she think my house was dirty' her reply, was no I'm just trying to make up for not being here more often & helping you out. So of course when she left it got me thinking...

 When I envisioned having kids, my mum played a big role in my life and the kids.. From being in the labour room when they were born  to seeing them on a regular basis, they would have been close.However when I met the man of my dreams & moved 3 hours away everything changed.So my mum doesnt get the chance to 'help out' and be a huge part of our lives.. In fact till the last weekend Memphis didnt really know his Nanny.( Note, he hasnt stopped saying Nanny in over a week, so he knows her well now)

I sometimes see Friends mothers helping out and doing stuff as a weakness. Afterall I dont get the help, so those that do get the help and still cant cope must be weak.. That's harsh- yes but it also shows I miss my mum..I am envious and  I often get frustrated and upset that mum's not here more.. I cant imagine the huge difference it would be having that support network. I dont begrudge my mum having a life. It's a case of were all busy and the 3 hour distance makes it really hard.. I'm working 6 days a week, so on the 7th day the last thing I want to do is drive 600kms..

It's a case of If you cant have it then you choose to not need it.. But in hard times, when your world comes crashing down, who do we need? Even without a close relationship with my mum I still need her. I find myself asking all those questions that you dont think about till your older..

So to those who dont have their mums around, and feel alone and struggle and would love to just have that little bit of help I hear ya...But I also want to say that you need to be proud of what you're doing and how much you're accomplishing.. I know women who have farmer husbands, and workaholic partners, and are almost raising their children as a single mum.. I take my hat off to you.

To those who are lucky enough to have their mothers presence in their lives.. I'm so happy for you, and no doubt you appreciate it already.. After all without our mums, we wouldnt be here.

Getting the ball rolling

Ok, so I'm really struggling starting this second entry.. I dont know why, I've been a writer from way back.. Not professionally but I kept an in depth diary from grade 5 till just before Memphis was born 2 years ago. I seem to have lost my knack- or perhaps there's just so much to tell I dont know where to start.

Last week was a Great sales week. The week started off with a huge sale on the monday and just got better from there. People often ask me if the shop is ''busy''. 90% of the time I cant honestly answer yes. My work history has been hospitality and retail- 2 years of that Fast food, and nearly 5 years in Supermarket Management. These were not slow pace jobs. So to go from that to a small run Baby store is a whole different league.Perhaps the better question would be how are sales? but then I may not want to answer that either.

I've always been a person who needs to be kept busy. I am my own worst enemy when I'm left with nothing to do.. I thought this would be impossible with a 2 year old toddler, but we always have our thoughts.So this week I'm trying to brainstorm new low cost  idea's for marketing the business.

On another note Memphis goes in for an adenoid operation on Friday. His op has been cancelled twice already so were prepared for it to happen again.. I know this operation will be great but I cant help but feel anxious. The anesthetic itself is dangerous without anything else. Since he was born he has struggled with breathing properly. In fact we never needed a baby monitor as he snored so loud we could hear him from one end of the house to the other.. Another symptom of enlarged adenoids -he always has a snotty nose.This looks horrible for him, & makes me feel like a bad mummy.. Were also hoping the op will help improve his speech.

I dont want to waffle on too much today, I'm not sure how often I will blog yet, so will keep em short for now.