MIA

Sorry it's been a while since my last blog.. I've had much to say but circumstances have kept me quiet.

So I'm going to start telling you all how it really is.. I've read tonnes of blogs and some of the women make it all seem so easy, like they have this picturesque life. A part of me wanted to portray myself like that, but its not real, and it doesnt make others feel good about themselves..

I've had a tough year..This Business thing and having a family at the same time is hard work.. Both on their own have enough challenges, but combining them is Insane.. Im not after sympathy, I chose this path, and my husband supports me, but it does get tiresome, and there are many days I wonder why I do what I do..

I never once thought running a business would be easy, I've had a good 11 years Retail experience with various Managament rolls. But the day to day, the slow days where only a couple people come instore, when the bills come in and the cash flow aint as great as it should be, and then well meaning friends constantly asking ''hows the business'' is very draining. I did for a while just answer ''yeah its good'' now I'm telling them ''its ok, but not quite where I want it to be , yet''. Some may take this as an ending for the business, but everything takes time to really get going.

I have faith it will get to where I want it to. It just may take a little longer than initially planned. And when it does, I'll be all the more prouder of myself for getting there and doing it all alone.

I'd love to spend more days at home with my son, playing, sitting on the couch watching tv together, doing activities together.. Id like to just be at home.. but the Big part of me thrives on challenges, and I love seeing how much I can overcome and accomplish.

And now to throw another hurdle into the mix (though it be a wonderful beautiful hurdle) we are having baby number 2.. And due 5th December- yes right before Christmas. So now as I already run the Business 6 days a week alone, with a 2 year old toddler instore 3 days a week, and then add in a new born baby.
The Business is not quite ready to have employees.. So my new challenge is getting the business ready to pay for staff, and try to get some time off when the new baby arrives..

Again, if I had my family around me for support and help this would all be so much easier. I worry that my stubborness is going to keep putting me in hot water and one day I wont be able to get myself out.

Somehow in life, things have managed to work out for me.. I shouldnt put it like that- It has been through lots of hard work and determination that i've succeeded. So though I feel like I'm in  a huge pickle I'm hoping things will yet again ''work out''.

Sorry if this was a downer of a post.. But now it's out I can move on and start telling you about all the wonderful things I have planned for the future..

Bec xox