So, clearly working at nights at the pub is taking me away from Baby for life. In the past 2 weeks whilst I've not been present on facebook, and doing things on the site sales have been dismal. Perhaps it also ties in with the fact that Victoria just finished school Holidays and elsewhere have started.. I hope its a factor and not just me. 

I'm working anywhere from 8-20hrs at nights per week. I love it. I am out of the house, interacting with adults- grown ups and the conversation has nothing to do with kids. Don't get me wrong, you know I love mine, and kids in general but gosh its so nice to expand my mind and thoughts to something else!
I am busy, moving, learning new skills and feeling good about myself again. Its very hard when ones own boss to pat yourself on the back for a job job done when Ive set the bar so high for myself I'd never reach it and therefore never please myself. My supervisors are pretty happy with me and the increase in my hours shows it.

I am still finding this work life balance, and I think I always will, absolutely impossible. I mean if I give lots of time online my house is a pigsty & the kids go crazy, if I work lots, I miss out on seeing the kids AND the house is a pigsty. I get all domesticated and do batch cooking , freeze stuff, and we eat like kings for a week, then I get tired from doing too much we eat toasted sandwiches, and all the frozen stuff (that was meant to last for a month ) in a week. And so the cycle begins again,.

It surprises me for someone who likes to control things so much and thrives off organizing that I'm not better at it, but well I haven't got there yet. I think I can only give my all 100% into only one thing at once.

So this weekend my first plan in place is to get these blogs happening more often, and perhaps set up a schedule for it all to attempt some organization.
But then I'm also hoping for some family time this weekend too.Hmmnn, surely I can fit it all in,.