Coaching- Session One

So where do I start. I mentioned on facebook that I have just started working with a Business & life coach. Sally Anne from Nourish Coaching. That I was excited and nervous all at once. Why do I need a Business/Life coach? Because I've reached a fork in the road with my life & business, feel a little lost & need some direction. I"m happy to admit it- first step to fixing things is admitting a problem right? I don't have all the answers, and since baby for Life is a one woman show it was kind of inevitable that I would have a burn out.

Well as I sat down at my computer to start our session via skype (online video chat where you see the person and talk to them) I suddenly felt very vunerable. Not only was I bringing this person- Sal into my home but would also be revealing all my ''faults'' and problems and laying myself bare. I already trusted her, or else Id never have hired her. But it had me feeling way more vunerable and exposed than I ever imagined.

It's one thing to think all those thoughts in your head, tell some things to my hubby, others to my friends, but if I wanted this coaching to work I had to tell Sal everything. And she was so totally unbiased I wasnt sure how she would interpret it all and what she would think of me,. My inner voice kept screaming "I'm not normally a cry baby'' ,''I'm not a sook'', ''I am a strong confident woman'' and my favourite "I'm not really a looney''.

The first part of our session- at my request was life coaching. Sal needed to find out where I was at- where I had come from and what all that meant to lead me to where I am today in my business. Questions were asked - things Ive often thought about, but the answers all led to something that I hadn't yet connected the dots. I don't want to bore you all with the details, and I've got quite alot of homework to do, but it was eye opening.

One thing I will share with you all is my struggle with this online business. It wasnt what I originally set out to do. I love being face to face with people. I love chatting to your kids & fussing over your babies. I love interacting with you and being Real. I love being a part of something bigger than myself and as it turns out Community is really important to me. Now that I can see all this I realize why I am still grieving for my shop front. I miss all of that by sitting behind a computer. Please dont think I am not grateful for you all! Golly the computer is almost an attachment of my body now, but it still feels so impersonal to me so now I know where to start making some changes.

So needless to say Sal, this person whom I had spoken to twice only on the phone ever in my life, had me sitting in front of my webcam and crying.. Yep within the first hour, walls broken down. I dont know how she does it- she asks all the right questions..

My brain likes to skip ahead, and luckily Sal could see this. I couldn't quite work out how all this life coaching, and personal stuff we discussed would tie into finding answers for my business. So we had a quick jump into session 2- Then I got excited. And everything made sense..

I didn't want the session to end. I was excited and Sal is sooooo smart! At times it was uncomfortable, and I felt like a school kid. I've seen counselors through the years (actually I still see one every now and then to get some things off my chest so my nearest and dearest don't have to cop it all) but Sal is different And she's Amazing.

I can see the possibilities again and the future that can be. Sal is going to my temporary boss (temporary as long as I need her) and I love it.. Being Boss all the time can be isolating and lonely, and dammit my brain can only come up with so many idea's, so Sal to the rescue.

I cannot wait for session two. There are only 3 sessions in this lot. I am already planning keeping her longer. She told me this might happen.. That I wont want to let go of her hand now that I have her support. She was right. See she's one smart cookie :)