So, clearly working at nights at the pub is taking me away from Baby for life. In the past 2 weeks whilst I've not been present on facebook, and doing things on the site sales have been dismal. Perhaps it also ties in with the fact that Victoria just finished school Holidays and elsewhere have started.. I hope its a factor and not just me. 

I'm working anywhere from 8-20hrs at nights per week. I love it. I am out of the house, interacting with adults- grown ups and the conversation has nothing to do with kids. Don't get me wrong, you know I love mine, and kids in general but gosh its so nice to expand my mind and thoughts to something else!
I am busy, moving, learning new skills and feeling good about myself again. Its very hard when ones own boss to pat yourself on the back for a job job done when Ive set the bar so high for myself I'd never reach it and therefore never please myself. My supervisors are pretty happy with me and the increase in my hours shows it.

I am still finding this work life balance, and I think I always will, absolutely impossible. I mean if I give lots of time online my house is a pigsty & the kids go crazy, if I work lots, I miss out on seeing the kids AND the house is a pigsty. I get all domesticated and do batch cooking , freeze stuff, and we eat like kings for a week, then I get tired from doing too much we eat toasted sandwiches, and all the frozen stuff (that was meant to last for a month ) in a week. And so the cycle begins again,.

It surprises me for someone who likes to control things so much and thrives off organizing that I'm not better at it, but well I haven't got there yet. I think I can only give my all 100% into only one thing at once.

So this weekend my first plan in place is to get these blogs happening more often, and perhaps set up a schedule for it all to attempt some organization.
But then I'm also hoping for some family time this weekend too.Hmmnn, surely I can fit it all in,.

Our Holiday -part 1

So were into day 3 of our Queensland Holiday. I feel like it's all going way too fast and were contemplating staying on here at the resort a few more nights..

1000 kms in the car on the first day. We stayed in a lovely little motel Called Tommos lodge in Narrabri and had the most refreshing swim in the salt water pool just after we arrived. It was heaven. The staff there were so friendly and we'd definitely stay there again.
Second day started off ok, and with just over 600kms to our destination we felt positive we'd made a good decision in driving (instead of flying) but by the end of the day and what should have taken 6 hours took us nearly 9 hours. We were so over it. Ask me once we return if id recommend doing it..

I felt a tad silly as we unpacked the car and it took 2 whole trolley loads (you know those tall trolleys like at hotels in the movies) to take our stuff upstairs to our room. But, I am so glad we bought so much- we've needed everything so far.
The boys duplo blocks, books, a tin full of matchbox cars, stacking cups, sticker books, you name it- all the boys favourite toys of the moment here with us.. Don't let this fool you- weve been non stop since we arrived, but even in the quiet times the boys are still occupying themselves with things to do- and they're happy to have familiar things from home. We also bought their 2 seater flip out sofa, again were all thankful for that.

The resort were staying at Zagames Paradise Resort- Family orientated. My review so far- Im fairly happy with it.. Our package includes 4 hours of childminding service per child per day. The rooms are clean and ours is spacious. The splash parks are to die for (if you have little ones this is soooo much better value than wet and wild where they can barely do anything) the food- well its resort priced but oh my is it delicious. Were doing a mix of supermarket bought (and prepared in our room with only a microwave) some bistro resort meals, and some we go out for.

The boys are exhausted everyday and so are we.. The one hour time difference from Victoria to Queensland is still playing havoc with our body clocks- especially where food is concerned. I think I may gain a couple kgs while Im here.

Were hoping to do SeaWorld tomorrow. Lots more things to see and I know Memphis will love the Dolphins and sharks. Oh and the new Pirate water theme park- just perfect after his party.

I must dash for now, Memphis is due to go play for 4 hours with the other kids in the kids play zone- we took him alone to Time Zone game centre this morning while Fox was in care, so now we get some one on one with Fox.

I hope you're all well, will be back in the next couple of days.

Big Sook

First full day at preschool tomorrow.
OK so I lost the plot at preschool interview this week & was almost a blubbering mess. After preschool comes big school and that is way too soon for me.. I don't think I struggled this much when I enrolled Memphis in daycare... Well I probably did but that was a lifetime ago.. I am struggling to remove him from daycare. Since I am after all an out of towner (having moved from Ballarat to Lake Boga 6 and a half years ago) I have only my mother in law as family and support here. So the daycare staff have been Memphis's extended family..i don't want to take them out of his life.
They do have a soft spot for him and I know they genuinely care for him... He wouldn't be there otherwise..
He will be attending preschool 3 days a week 9 am till 2pm.. I know he is going to thrive, he will love it.. He will miss his best friend jack from daycare, and I am truly upset about that. I know how hard it can be to connect to people. I don't think age makes one iota of a difference, were still people.

So I'm a tad emotional about that.

Also for those of you who may have read previous blog entries- you may know I suffer from endometriosis. Well it's not been kind to me, and despite pregnancy being a type of fixing for it( I say this as there is no permanent cure) I am still having issues.. So on Tuesday the 5th of February I am going into hospital for a small operation to remove it,.. I'm a sook, and I hate hospitals, and I've had this operation twice before but arghhhhhhhhhhh it sux big time... This is in the lead up to our 2 week family holiday to Queensland.. So yes we will be shut while were away as I am mainly a one woman show for Baby for life.

Ughh.. Being a woman on any given day can be hard, and being a woman with a reproductive pain issue and a mother and a organizer & everything else we do- well it's bloody impossible.. But I am a taurean.. Yep I'm stubborn and determined and somehow things work out..

I know I still haven't posted any pics form Memphis's pirate party,.. I think I kind of missed the boat on that one (NO pun intended) but you've got a blog entry- that's a start right!

Anywho, thanks for your time.. I hope I can manage to get some entries out before I go away, and maybe 1 or 2 while I'm away.. but then you'll all forgive me for enjoying my time off wont you?

Reflections of age

I don't know why I've struggled to start this blog.. I had so much fun.. I think I'm sad the party was all over so soon, and that's it for a whole year! But before I rehash the party (the pirate party, some of you may have heard about it) and the cool stuff we did I have some other stuff to reflect upon.

So my first born just turned 4.. Its strange how them getting a year older doesn't really hit you until the actual day and then its like where did the time go? and then in a matter of 2 weeks since his birthday Finally something has clicked and I have managed ( that's right me) I've taught my son 3 letters of the alphabet..
I've been concerned for quite a while that he was behind, and asking why wasn't he ''getting'' it? ( my besties daughter had long been able to read, recognize letters and names, and write names too) we read books together, we draw, and do the alphabet.. but for some reason now he gets it... Its funny cause right now he has full ownership of every m in existence. He sees the word smile on my wall on a banner and says mum that's my name- pointing to the m... I'm so proud..

His little friend just turned 3 only days after him... And he proudly( with some guidance)  wrote his friends name on the envelope.. Now he knows the letter A. And well I for ice-cream has sunk in too, and he does his little i's with the dots so very precise.

Also since turning 4 he now has to cut up his own food (we thought it was time he was allowed to use a knife) so he got a special new knife and fork set for xmas. I'm a big boy now he tells us, and will insist on doing it all himself until he is unable either through ability or tiredness kicks in.

I'm not sure if he's just started noticing how many cuddles his 1 year old brother gets, but of late he's been coming up and asking for a big cuddle.. He's really making me feel loved. I know its not his role to make me feel anything. But, he's been an independent little mite since the day he was born and then instantly became daddy's boy & only needed/ wanted me mum when he was hurt and or tired.. Its the bestest feeling to have your child consciously love you and want you.. He picks me flowers from the lawn (the few weeds around, he knows not to ruin mummy's garden by picking those flowers- see he's thoughtful) and he tells me he loves me. If he gives me 2 flowers that means he loves me 2 times!!!! Oh I'm cherishing these moments I assure you....

I hope to raise a thoughtful, respectful, hardworking, focused & genuine young man. Hmmn when I think about it, lots of traits like his daddy really :)

So I'm hoping next blog I Post will finally be about Memphis's 4th Birthday pirate party... More than likely not, I've had some inspiration for other posts of late.. Till then be sure to hug your wee ones tight and cherish every moment